First off, I'm amazed that anyone reads my blog to begin with. Second, being asked by Lacy (follow her on Twitter @netfux) to use my blog on her podcast was incredibly flattering. The entry that features my blog is titled "2/3 of a Threesome" so check it out. Here is the link. Check it out, and leave some feedback.
Thank you again, Lacy!! :)
Monday, June 20, 2011
Sunday, June 19, 2011
Happy Father's Day
I laid down on the bed, put the blindfold on, and put my arms up so Dustin to tie my to the bed. He then proceeded to run a feather along my body. Being blindfolded, and not knowing what was going to come next, where he was going to touch me, how he was going to touch me, just made everything that much more intense. He used some clit stimulator gel on me, and continued to massage my clit, soft, hard, knowing exactly how to touch me by the way my body is reacting to him. Dustin knows me, and my body so well, it just makes sex with him that much more fun. (You should check out his hot blog here.)
He was using his lips, tongue and fingers, and I was about to cum. He could see this, so he shoved his fingers deep into my pussy, and began finger fucking me good and hard. He was playing with my ass, too, which always gets me off. This orgasm was very deep, almost primal, and I didn't want it to end. He kept hitting just the right spot, making me cum harder and harder. I was wet and ready for him to shove his big, hard cock in me. But I had to wait. It was my turn to tease and play with him.
I put on my long satin gloves and began to rub my hands all over his body. He was still on his knees right next to me, so I rolled over on my side and began giving him head. I absolutely love to suck on Dustin's cock. It's gorgeous, it's the perfect size, and knowing how much he enjoys it makes it that much more fun for me. While I was playing with his cock, he shoved a finger completely in my ass, and started finger fucking my ass, with no lube. This was a first because we always use lube for any kind of serious ass play like that, but this time I didn't need it. In fact, I almost enjoyed it more because it was so spontaneous. Him playing with my ass made me want to suck his cock even more. I had to be careful though, I wanted his cock in more places than just my mouth. When he was done with my ass, I had him lay down on his back. I was rubbing him all over with my gloves again, sucking his cock, and I even grabbed the feather to rub along his cock and balls. He seemed to really enjoy that, too.
I got on top of him, and pushed my pussy onto his hard cock. I didn't put him in me yet, this was still part of me teasing him. This is when the dirty talk started. I absolutely love it when Dustin talks dirty to me. I love hearing everything he wants to do to me, or have me do to him. This time, it was all about what he wanted me to do to him. And it was hot. Dustin enjoys anal play both ways, giving and receiving (you can read that blog post here.) so he was telling me how he would like to do a role reversal. He would like me to take control one night, with the strap on, and have my way with him. He was telling me how he'd like to stroke my cock (strap-on) while I play with him. Just hearing him talk about it got me so turned on, I couldn't tease him any longer, I needed him now. (Just thinking about it again just not has me all turned on all over again!)
It was finally time to fuck! I mounted him and began to ride. He was still telling me all kinds of dirty things just making me grind my pussy on his cock harder and faster. He could feel how wet I was getting, and even began to encourage me to not only cum, but to soak him with my juices. I was more than happy to oblige, and I followed orders. He made me cum again quickly by rubbing my clit while I continued to ride him. At this point, I have cum so much, and so hard, that my legs are giving out and I can't lift myself up to keep riding. Dustin has me get on my stomach, and proceeds to fuck me, hard, from behind. He grabbed my hair and my neck. I asked him which was going to get him off more, thinking of fucking me in the ass, or thinking of me fucking him in the ass. That got him very hard, very fast, and he fucked me just to get himself off at that point. Of course, it made me cum again, too.
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
To Squirt or not to Squirt?
It's been awhile since I've posted anything here. Truth be told, there hasn't been much to write about lately. Too many other things going on in my regular life that wouldn't make for an interesting read. And then there was the one night last week.
I don't remember if I've ever talked about squirting before or not, but I will be talking about it in this blog. Up until 4 years ago, I had never even heard of squirting, so when my boyfriend at the time (now husband) mentioned it, I was completely clueless. At first, I thought it was a golden shower, which didn't interest me at all. Dustin then sent me a couple of squirting videos, and I thought they were hot as hell. What man doesn't want to make the woman he's with just explode in every way possible? What woman, for that matter, doesn't want her man to make her physically unable to stand because his cock hit just the right spot? So we both started doing research to try to find out how and why women squirt. Just reading that sentence makes me giggle....how many people do you know who will research something sexual? Although, I guess, to a certain extent, porn is research in some capacity, so it's not too far fetched.
Everything that I found about squirting said that I needed to relax. Okay, I can do that. Wait, can I? I haven't ever really thought about if I'm relaxed or not during sex. I have always focused on how good it feels. Hmmmm, okay I need to be a little more conscious about what my muscles are doing during sex.
I also read that it could feel like you need to urinate, that is okay, and just push through it. Excuse me, what? Push through feeling the need to pee? But doesn't that mean that I will pee the bed? Maybe, maybe not. Dustin said he was okay if that's what happened, if it helped me to be able to squirt. Hold on, I have to relax, AND push through feeling like I have to pee? How the fuck do you do that? I started to get confused, and overwhelmed, so we just stopped talking about it.
We have mentioned it in passing here and there, and he really wants to make me squirt, and I really want to squirt. I know it's physically possible for every woman to squirt, but psychologically it's not. So, we stopped trying and just went back to enjoying our very active, very satisfying sex life.
One night, I was riding Dustin. I love to be on top. I can get his cock so far in me, and I can be in complete control. I can make his cock hit every spot I want it to hit to get myself off. I think that's what I enjoy most about riding him, as selfish as it may sound, I get myself off hard and fast, and then I focus on him. I have learned how to get myself to cum so hard that all I can do is collapse on top of Dustin. In doing that, I have also learned that I soak him with my juices.
The other night, I did just that. I was riding Dustin to my little hearts content, and the juices were flowing, to the point I could feel them running down my legs, I was actually splashing in them every time I came down on him. I don't think I squirted, but with all my juices flowing, how do I know I didn't? And yes, those were all my juices. We use condoms during sex because I am not getting pregnant again. So, until I get my tubes tied, condoms it is!
I don't know for sure if this has made me squirt, but it has definitely made my juices flow, and that has been very nice. That's not to say that I wouldn't mind being able to squirt (and know it) one day, but I've definitely taken the emphasis off it. I've learned to relax more during sex, and in doing so, I've enjoyed it MUCH more. I always have very intense orgasms with Dustin. This night in particular, I actually couldn't speak for a little bit after we finished. We definitely work well together in bed, and I love it!
I don't remember if I've ever talked about squirting before or not, but I will be talking about it in this blog. Up until 4 years ago, I had never even heard of squirting, so when my boyfriend at the time (now husband) mentioned it, I was completely clueless. At first, I thought it was a golden shower, which didn't interest me at all. Dustin then sent me a couple of squirting videos, and I thought they were hot as hell. What man doesn't want to make the woman he's with just explode in every way possible? What woman, for that matter, doesn't want her man to make her physically unable to stand because his cock hit just the right spot? So we both started doing research to try to find out how and why women squirt. Just reading that sentence makes me giggle....how many people do you know who will research something sexual? Although, I guess, to a certain extent, porn is research in some capacity, so it's not too far fetched.
Everything that I found about squirting said that I needed to relax. Okay, I can do that. Wait, can I? I haven't ever really thought about if I'm relaxed or not during sex. I have always focused on how good it feels. Hmmmm, okay I need to be a little more conscious about what my muscles are doing during sex.
I also read that it could feel like you need to urinate, that is okay, and just push through it. Excuse me, what? Push through feeling the need to pee? But doesn't that mean that I will pee the bed? Maybe, maybe not. Dustin said he was okay if that's what happened, if it helped me to be able to squirt. Hold on, I have to relax, AND push through feeling like I have to pee? How the fuck do you do that? I started to get confused, and overwhelmed, so we just stopped talking about it.
We have mentioned it in passing here and there, and he really wants to make me squirt, and I really want to squirt. I know it's physically possible for every woman to squirt, but psychologically it's not. So, we stopped trying and just went back to enjoying our very active, very satisfying sex life.
One night, I was riding Dustin. I love to be on top. I can get his cock so far in me, and I can be in complete control. I can make his cock hit every spot I want it to hit to get myself off. I think that's what I enjoy most about riding him, as selfish as it may sound, I get myself off hard and fast, and then I focus on him. I have learned how to get myself to cum so hard that all I can do is collapse on top of Dustin. In doing that, I have also learned that I soak him with my juices.
The other night, I did just that. I was riding Dustin to my little hearts content, and the juices were flowing, to the point I could feel them running down my legs, I was actually splashing in them every time I came down on him. I don't think I squirted, but with all my juices flowing, how do I know I didn't? And yes, those were all my juices. We use condoms during sex because I am not getting pregnant again. So, until I get my tubes tied, condoms it is!
I don't know for sure if this has made me squirt, but it has definitely made my juices flow, and that has been very nice. That's not to say that I wouldn't mind being able to squirt (and know it) one day, but I've definitely taken the emphasis off it. I've learned to relax more during sex, and in doing so, I've enjoyed it MUCH more. I always have very intense orgasms with Dustin. This night in particular, I actually couldn't speak for a little bit after we finished. We definitely work well together in bed, and I love it!
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
100 things about me.
Okay, okay, okay. I know I'm a bit late in getting to this, but better late then never, right? I don't know if I'll be able to do the full 100, but I will do my best. So, here we go!
1. I have moved around, a lot. I used to change schools frequently.
2. I went to 3 elementary schools, 2 middle schools, and 3 high schools. (Not including being homeschooled for the end of my sophmore year because I had mono.)
3. When we moved to Colorado Springs, I was sick almost constantly for the first year we were there.
4. All of my daughters are named after family members.
5. I have had self-esteem issues most of my life.
6. I stayed in an abusive marriage because I thought that was what I deserved, and I thought I couldn't raise my kids on my own.
7. I met my husband online, and fell deeply in love with him before ever meeting him face to face.
8. The longest I have lived in one home since I moved out of my parents house is 2 1/2 years.
9. I have had a variety of jobs in my life. I've been a lunch lady, a manager at McDonald's, and a telemarketer.
10. While I have taken a few college classes, I never got my degree.
11. I miss my kitty Herman and my dog Cleo.
12. I lived in Germany for 3 years and loved it so much I didn't want to come back to the U.S.
13. <-------That is my lucky/favorite number.
14. I love Friday the 13th.
15. My favorite meal as a kid was my grandmother's roast beef, potatoes and carrots.
16. Sadly, I don't remember anything about that grandmother from before her Alzheimer's got really bad.
17. My extended family is spread out all across the country, and I don't really see any of them.
18. It doesn't upset me too much because I've never really been that close with any of them.
19. At the moment, I have 3 complete tattoos, and am working on my 4th, and largest.
20. I lost my virginity at 16 to a man I thought I would end up marrying.
21. I never saw him again after that.
22. The first time I got pregnant, I was 18.
23. The last time I got pregnant, I was 33.
24. I have 1 sibling, a younger brother.
25. We are only 11 months apart, and are the same age for a month.
26. My mother lives an hour away, and has only seen my youngest daughter 3 times in the last 2 years.
27. My dad and step-mom are usually my babysitters now.
28. I have been with a woman before, but I wasn't attracted to her (more the thought of being with another woman), and was so incredibly nervous that I didn't enjoy it as much as I could have.
29. My ex husband set up several threesomes for us (MMF) without telling me, and then would guilt me into going along with it.
30. Of all the men I've been with, only 2 have been able to make me cum through oral and penetration.
31. Of all the men I've been with, only 1 has left me absolutely breathless after sex.
32. I've only ever really enjoyed giving one man head.
33. I've enjoyed it so much, that I almost make myself cum just from doing it sometimes.
34. <-----This is how old I am right now.
35. I'm not afraid to tell people my age.
36. No one believes me anyways. They all think I'm younger.
37. My first husband is 5 years older than me.
38. Once we divorced, I only dated men younger than me.
39. My current husband is 6 years younger than me.
40. I wish we lived in a house so that Newman, my dog, had a yard to play in.
41. I also wish Teagan had a yard to play in.
42. When we first moved back from Germany, my friend and I would take my girls all over to different playgrounds.
43. When we lived in Germany, that same friend and I would go play with the neighborhood kids all the time.
44. I love having scented candles, scented oils, or incense burning in my house.
45. My first marriage lasted 10 years, he moved out 1 month after our 10th anniversary.
46. I would love to have a Monday through Friday day job again.
47. I have had 2 miscarriages, the last one almost killed me.
48. I have a hard time talking about myself.
49. My husband and I had our first threesome with another woman last week.
50. I have been dying my hair since I was 17.
51. If we could afford it, I would love to be a stay at home mom/wife.
52. I love to cook, but don't do it as often as I'd like.
53. I also enjoy baking cookies and cakes, but since I married Dustin, he's the baker in the family.
54. Dustin proposed to me 3 times, the first time we hadn't even met face-to-face yet.
55. I love having pets. They're a huge part of our family.
56. The age difference between my middle and youngest daughters is 11 1/2 years.
57. My youngest daughter is basically an only child.
58. I will not have any more children.
59. I hate carpet. I would rather have tile or hardwood floors in my house.
60. In the summer, I hate having socks or tennis shoes on my feet.
61. One of the reasons I wanted my dog so much is because he looked just like an Ewok when he was little.
62. I have had a very high metabolism most of my life, and have only recently had to start watching what I eat.
63. I enjoy watching some reality TV shows, but not all.
64. I love watching "The Biggest Loser" to see the physical and mental changes these people go through. I find it inspiring.
65. My favorite time of the year is summer.
66. I hate being cold, and am actually a really big baby when it comes to cold weather.
67. Dustin and I didn't live together (or even in the same state) until we had been married for a month.
68. My mom wasn't invited to either of my weddings.
69. I never had the wedding with the dress and reception, but it's something I've always wanted.
70. I didn't tell Dustin that our first child was a boy until almost 2 years after we lost him.
71. I enjoy going to the mall just to walk around, and I don't have to buy something every time I go there.
72. My youngest daughter is a shopper as well, and has been going to the mall regularly since she was 4 days old.
73. The first time we took Teagan to the mall, someone asked us if she was a real baby.
74. My middle daughter and my youngest daughter were the same height and weight at birth.
75. I had natural childbirth with Teagan, not by choice.
76. I have no sympathy for women who are pregnant. I literally worked up until I had my youngest. (Got off work at 6:30, she was born at 10:30.)
77. I have never met my brother-in-law, and sometimes even forget I have one.
78. I haven't seen my brother in 5 years, and I don't know when I'll see him again.
79. I am the only one in the family that still has contact with my brother, by his choice.
80. I was a tall child, usually one of the tallest girls in class until high school.
81. I have brown hair, light brown eyes, and pale skin.
82. Because of my skin coloring, I can get away with very dark hair or any shade of red. I'm lucky like that.
83. I have lived in Colorado, Florida, California, Texas, and Germany.
84. I would like to move back to Germany some day.
85. I would like to move to Washington in the near future so that Teagan can be closer to Dustin's family.
86. My two oldest daughters live with their dad.
87. I'm never afraid to answer people's questions, no matter how personal they are.
88. I am surprisingly shy in certain situations.
89. I have a hard time standing up for myself.
90. The only live birth I've ever seen was my middle daughter's on video.
91. My dad and step-mom came to the hospital when I had all three of my daughters and my last miscarriage.
92. I am not a religious person, but I do believe there is some kind of higher power out there.
93. I believe in kharma.
94. I think my oldest daughter is the only one of my children that looks like me. The other 2 look more like their dad.
95. My youngest daughter has blonde hair and blue eyes, Dustin has dark brown hair and green eyes, I have brown hair and brown eyes.
96. I am much closer with my mother-in-law than I am with my own mom.
97. I love to workout with my husband, but haven't been able to since my oldest daughter moved out.
98. I used to own Siberian Huskies when we lived in Texas, and one year for Christmas, we had 7 puppies.
99. I still have a bit of teenage rebel in me, I hate being told what to do, and will often times do the opposite, just because.
100. Since starting my blog, I've remembered just how much I love to write.
1. I have moved around, a lot. I used to change schools frequently.
2. I went to 3 elementary schools, 2 middle schools, and 3 high schools. (Not including being homeschooled for the end of my sophmore year because I had mono.)
3. When we moved to Colorado Springs, I was sick almost constantly for the first year we were there.
4. All of my daughters are named after family members.
5. I have had self-esteem issues most of my life.
6. I stayed in an abusive marriage because I thought that was what I deserved, and I thought I couldn't raise my kids on my own.
7. I met my husband online, and fell deeply in love with him before ever meeting him face to face.
8. The longest I have lived in one home since I moved out of my parents house is 2 1/2 years.
9. I have had a variety of jobs in my life. I've been a lunch lady, a manager at McDonald's, and a telemarketer.
10. While I have taken a few college classes, I never got my degree.
11. I miss my kitty Herman and my dog Cleo.
12. I lived in Germany for 3 years and loved it so much I didn't want to come back to the U.S.
13. <-------That is my lucky/favorite number.
14. I love Friday the 13th.
15. My favorite meal as a kid was my grandmother's roast beef, potatoes and carrots.
16. Sadly, I don't remember anything about that grandmother from before her Alzheimer's got really bad.
17. My extended family is spread out all across the country, and I don't really see any of them.
18. It doesn't upset me too much because I've never really been that close with any of them.
19. At the moment, I have 3 complete tattoos, and am working on my 4th, and largest.
20. I lost my virginity at 16 to a man I thought I would end up marrying.
21. I never saw him again after that.
22. The first time I got pregnant, I was 18.
23. The last time I got pregnant, I was 33.
24. I have 1 sibling, a younger brother.
25. We are only 11 months apart, and are the same age for a month.
26. My mother lives an hour away, and has only seen my youngest daughter 3 times in the last 2 years.
27. My dad and step-mom are usually my babysitters now.
28. I have been with a woman before, but I wasn't attracted to her (more the thought of being with another woman), and was so incredibly nervous that I didn't enjoy it as much as I could have.
29. My ex husband set up several threesomes for us (MMF) without telling me, and then would guilt me into going along with it.
30. Of all the men I've been with, only 2 have been able to make me cum through oral and penetration.
31. Of all the men I've been with, only 1 has left me absolutely breathless after sex.
32. I've only ever really enjoyed giving one man head.
33. I've enjoyed it so much, that I almost make myself cum just from doing it sometimes.
34. <-----This is how old I am right now.
35. I'm not afraid to tell people my age.
36. No one believes me anyways. They all think I'm younger.
37. My first husband is 5 years older than me.
38. Once we divorced, I only dated men younger than me.
39. My current husband is 6 years younger than me.
40. I wish we lived in a house so that Newman, my dog, had a yard to play in.
41. I also wish Teagan had a yard to play in.
42. When we first moved back from Germany, my friend and I would take my girls all over to different playgrounds.
43. When we lived in Germany, that same friend and I would go play with the neighborhood kids all the time.
44. I love having scented candles, scented oils, or incense burning in my house.
45. My first marriage lasted 10 years, he moved out 1 month after our 10th anniversary.
46. I would love to have a Monday through Friday day job again.
47. I have had 2 miscarriages, the last one almost killed me.
48. I have a hard time talking about myself.
49. My husband and I had our first threesome with another woman last week.
50. I have been dying my hair since I was 17.
51. If we could afford it, I would love to be a stay at home mom/wife.
52. I love to cook, but don't do it as often as I'd like.
53. I also enjoy baking cookies and cakes, but since I married Dustin, he's the baker in the family.
54. Dustin proposed to me 3 times, the first time we hadn't even met face-to-face yet.
55. I love having pets. They're a huge part of our family.
56. The age difference between my middle and youngest daughters is 11 1/2 years.
57. My youngest daughter is basically an only child.
58. I will not have any more children.
59. I hate carpet. I would rather have tile or hardwood floors in my house.
60. In the summer, I hate having socks or tennis shoes on my feet.
61. One of the reasons I wanted my dog so much is because he looked just like an Ewok when he was little.
62. I have had a very high metabolism most of my life, and have only recently had to start watching what I eat.
63. I enjoy watching some reality TV shows, but not all.
64. I love watching "The Biggest Loser" to see the physical and mental changes these people go through. I find it inspiring.
65. My favorite time of the year is summer.
66. I hate being cold, and am actually a really big baby when it comes to cold weather.
67. Dustin and I didn't live together (or even in the same state) until we had been married for a month.
68. My mom wasn't invited to either of my weddings.
69. I never had the wedding with the dress and reception, but it's something I've always wanted.
70. I didn't tell Dustin that our first child was a boy until almost 2 years after we lost him.
71. I enjoy going to the mall just to walk around, and I don't have to buy something every time I go there.
72. My youngest daughter is a shopper as well, and has been going to the mall regularly since she was 4 days old.
73. The first time we took Teagan to the mall, someone asked us if she was a real baby.
74. My middle daughter and my youngest daughter were the same height and weight at birth.
75. I had natural childbirth with Teagan, not by choice.
76. I have no sympathy for women who are pregnant. I literally worked up until I had my youngest. (Got off work at 6:30, she was born at 10:30.)
77. I have never met my brother-in-law, and sometimes even forget I have one.
78. I haven't seen my brother in 5 years, and I don't know when I'll see him again.
79. I am the only one in the family that still has contact with my brother, by his choice.
80. I was a tall child, usually one of the tallest girls in class until high school.
81. I have brown hair, light brown eyes, and pale skin.
82. Because of my skin coloring, I can get away with very dark hair or any shade of red. I'm lucky like that.
83. I have lived in Colorado, Florida, California, Texas, and Germany.
84. I would like to move back to Germany some day.
85. I would like to move to Washington in the near future so that Teagan can be closer to Dustin's family.
86. My two oldest daughters live with their dad.
87. I'm never afraid to answer people's questions, no matter how personal they are.
88. I am surprisingly shy in certain situations.
89. I have a hard time standing up for myself.
90. The only live birth I've ever seen was my middle daughter's on video.
91. My dad and step-mom came to the hospital when I had all three of my daughters and my last miscarriage.
92. I am not a religious person, but I do believe there is some kind of higher power out there.
93. I believe in kharma.
94. I think my oldest daughter is the only one of my children that looks like me. The other 2 look more like their dad.
95. My youngest daughter has blonde hair and blue eyes, Dustin has dark brown hair and green eyes, I have brown hair and brown eyes.
96. I am much closer with my mother-in-law than I am with my own mom.
97. I love to workout with my husband, but haven't been able to since my oldest daughter moved out.
98. I used to own Siberian Huskies when we lived in Texas, and one year for Christmas, we had 7 puppies.
99. I still have a bit of teenage rebel in me, I hate being told what to do, and will often times do the opposite, just because.
100. Since starting my blog, I've remembered just how much I love to write.
Saturday, May 14, 2011
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
In My Dreams
Then the holidays came around, and the new year. We would send little texts back and forth seeing how the other was doing, letting each other know that we're still interested, and that we'll work something out as soon as our schedules permit. It was something that was always in the back of my mind. I would think about it here and there, but it wasn't something that any of us were pushing for.
One day, N and I were texting again and we started talking about how I felt about things. I told her about what had happened with the threesomes I'd tried to have before, and how I felt afterwards. I wanted to be completely honest with her because I wanted all of us to be able to enjoy it. I told her I didn't know how I was going to react to seeing my husband fuck another woman. (Yes, I have told Dustin this, too.) I don't feel like I'm a jealous person, but I do get very territorial, and I can't help it. N completely understands, and told me that, if it made me feel better, it would just be her and I fucking, and he could watch. (Still a huge turn on for Dustin and I.) She also said that, while she's attracted to both of us, she doesn't want to ruin the friendship or any of our relationships over sex, so whatever I was comfortable with is what would happen.
Hearing that just made me even more turned on, and want her even more. This last week or so, N and I have been texting quite a bit again. I mentioned to her that I've been thinking about her, and I would really like to get together with her soon. To my surprise, she said she may be able to come hang out Thursday (tomorrow). I was very excited, and shared that with Dustin as I was going to bed. It clearly had the intended effect on him, because when he came to bed, he attacked me, and I was cumming from the second he touched me.
As I was leaving work yesterday, I just happened to run into N on my way out. It was a huge coincidence, but turned me on even more. We hugged, and talked again about her coming over. She said it looked like an even bigger possibility, and that she would let me know as soon as she knew for sure, one way or another. I texted Dustin to let him know, and to also tell him that he would be getting fucked that night. When I got home, we put the little one down for a little bit, I pulled his pants down, and began to give him an amazing blow job. (Side note: Seriously, I've never enjoyed sucking cock before, but there's just something about Dustin's cock...it's the perfect size for me to deep throat, and to play with it with my mouth, I absolutely LOVE his cock!!!)
I ended up going to bed early because I had worked a very long day at work and I physically just couldn't stay awake any longer, even though I tried. I was asleep as soon as my head hit the pillow. It didn't feel like I had been asleep for very long, but I started to have sexy dreams. I'm not one to remember very much about my dreams, as a matter of fact, I rarely dream. But last night, I had some amazing dreams, and I remember parts of them. The one I remember the most, the one I was having when I woke up this morning, was so fucking hot I woke up with my hand down my panties. Here is what I remember:
N and I had gone for a walk because she wanted something to drink. Dustin and I are Straight Edge, so we don't have any alcohol in the house, and that's what she wanted. We were cutting through the parking lot of the abandoned bowling alley behind our apartments, and I pushed her up against one of the walls of the building. I pushed my body in to hers, stared deep into her eyes and started running my hands up and down her body as I began to kiss her, softly at first. When I felt her responding to my touch and my kiss, it got deeper. I kept her pinned against the wall, and started rubbing her breasts underneath her shirt. They were soft, and I could feel her nipples getting hard at my touch. She was running her hands all over me as well. She was grabbing my ass and pulling my hips into her. We made out like this for what felt like hours, and then we broke away from each other and walked back to our apartment. We came walking back in with silly grins on our faces. Dustin turned to look at us, and immediately knew what had happened. She and I went into the kitchen to put the things away from the store, and this time, she pushed me up against the refrigerator and started kissing me, hard. Where Dustin was sitting on the couch, he could clearly see what she was doing to me, and my reaction to it. She shoved her hand down my pants, and I immediately began moaning. She took a step back, I grabbed her, and led her to our room, telling Dustin to follow so he could watch what was about to happen.
Sadly, this is where I woke up. I know the real thing will be just as amazing, if not more so. I'm just hoping it happens soon!!!
Monday, May 9, 2011
I Want More!!!!
I haven't posted a blog in awhile. It's not that I haven't had anything to write about, life has just gotten in the way a bit. (You know, new job, kid leaving home, getting sick, the usual.) So I asked Dustin last night what my next blog should be about. (You can find his blog here.) He told me to write about my experience with a woman. While it's been quite some time, I will do my best to write about it.
It all began with my first husband wanting a threesome with another woman, or even group sex. It was not a happy marriage for a very long time, and I got tired of hearing him always run his mouth, so I got to the point where I'd do anything he wanted just to shut him up. I don't recommend anyone doing this in a relationship ever because it sucks. When he brought up a threesome with another woman, I was even more apprehensive than I thought I would be, for all different reasons. I don't think I'm a jealous person, but that also doesn't mean I'm stupid. I know when the man I'm with is just trying to get away with fucking another woman, and not in it for all of our pleasure. Every situation that involved another woman with my Ex was that kind of situation. How do I know this? Because he had already fucked the first woman he wanted to have a threesome with, his best friend's wife (without telling me until about 2 years later). Anyways, I was game, and thought it could be fun. I put down some ground rules, and we all agreed to see what would happen.
She came over, with the intent that she and I would start to fool around, and he would join in later. That's kind of what happened, except that she wasn't too interested in me. I chalked it up to both of us being nervous, and ignored the bells and whistles that were going off in my brain. She and I went to our room, stripped down to our panties, and started kissing. That's as far as the two of us got before the Ex couldn't wait any longer and came in the room. He told us to ignore him, but again, she was more interested in him. So, he joined in, and, of course, started fucking her first and ignored me. Now, I'm not trying to sound like a whiny little bitch here, but I was pretty fucked up in the head to begin with back then, and this sent me over the edge. I ran into the bathroom, crying. They obviously kept going for a bit before they noticed I was gone, because it took a few minutes before anyone came to check on me. That was my very first experience with a woman. Not great at all, but she could definitely kiss, and I was definitely curious about what being with a woman would be like.
About a year or so later, I mentioned something along this line to the Ex. Of course, I should have known better, but I thought I could share things with him, that he had learned his lesson. Anyways, we ended up setting something up on the internet. (This was 10 years ago, and my first experiences with the internet, so there weren't many places that I knew of to go.) I don't remember now where we placed ads, but we got some responses. We got a response from a couple that happened to live close by, so close, in fact, that their son was in class with one of our daughters. Small world, I know! This made me feel a bit more at ease, and I was able to talk to both of them easier. Even though I didn't know what either of them really looked like, I found myself getting very aroused talking to them, and even began to fantasize about fucking them. I was honest with both of them, and told them about our first experience with another woman and that I was very apprehensive about trying it again. She assured me that if I didn't want the men to join in, it would just be the two of us and they would just watch. This, of course, turned me on even more. We decided we were going to do this, but never really set up a date that would work for all of us.
And then came September 11th. Yes, THAT September 11th. We had just put our girls on the bus for school, and had turned on MTV. He called and asked if we were watching the news, and told me what happened. I thought he was joking because he had a sick sense of humor like that. I turned on the news, NBC, and just sat there in shock and horror. My Ex was in the military at this time, and we were stationed at Ft. Hood, TX. We didn't know what was going on, and we were scared. We decided to head over to our friend's house (since we couldn't get off base anyways) and watch what was going on together. This was the first time we all met in person. When we heard for sure that the base was closed, I called in to work. There was no way I'd make it anyways. The girl and I started talking (I'll call her Red, because I remember her having red hair), and we decided that fooling around could be a lot of fun right now. I think we said something to the guys, and made our way back to the bedroom.
I had previously told her that I had no experience with women, other than that nightmare, and I was extremely nervous. She just smiled and told me not to worry. If I wasn't comfortable doing things to her, she would do everything to me. She also assured me that the men would not come in unless we asked them to. This definitely put me more at ease. We laid down on the bed and started making out. She wasn't the best kisser, but I could let it go. She started to bring out some toys, and eventually stripped us both naked. I don't even remember if I was running my hands along her body or not, but I do know that she was definitely making me wet. She was licking my pussy in a way that no man ever had before. I was squirming and writhing in pleasure, and loving every second of it. And then, she brought out the double ended dildo. Things just went downhill from there. The Ex heard me, and wanted to see what was making me feel so good. She started to either show off, or the newness had worn off and it just didn't feel as good, I don't know what it was, but I got out of the mood very quickly. We ended up all fucking in the same bed (couple on couple) and ended up leaving a short time after that.
So there you have it, my extent of experience with women. Would I like to try again? Of course. I know all women can't be bad in bed, and I'm hoping the third time will be the charm. Why do I want to be with another woman? Ummm, hello? Have you ever looked at a naked woman? Women have beautiful bodies. I love the different curves of each section of a woman's body. I want to see what it's like to just be with a woman, and maybe have Dustin walk in on us. I know he loves to think about it too, and that alone makes me want it more. See, I enjoy doing things Dustin wants, and things that make him feel good. As a matter of fact, I love pleasing him almost more than I enjoy being pleased. That's why I know my next experience with a woman will be very different. Yes, we do have someone in mind, but volunteers are always welcome! ;)
Also, please feel free to leave any kind of feedback of things you think could help me relax or get more in the mood.
She came over, with the intent that she and I would start to fool around, and he would join in later. That's kind of what happened, except that she wasn't too interested in me. I chalked it up to both of us being nervous, and ignored the bells and whistles that were going off in my brain. She and I went to our room, stripped down to our panties, and started kissing. That's as far as the two of us got before the Ex couldn't wait any longer and came in the room. He told us to ignore him, but again, she was more interested in him. So, he joined in, and, of course, started fucking her first and ignored me. Now, I'm not trying to sound like a whiny little bitch here, but I was pretty fucked up in the head to begin with back then, and this sent me over the edge. I ran into the bathroom, crying. They obviously kept going for a bit before they noticed I was gone, because it took a few minutes before anyone came to check on me. That was my very first experience with a woman. Not great at all, but she could definitely kiss, and I was definitely curious about what being with a woman would be like.
About a year or so later, I mentioned something along this line to the Ex. Of course, I should have known better, but I thought I could share things with him, that he had learned his lesson. Anyways, we ended up setting something up on the internet. (This was 10 years ago, and my first experiences with the internet, so there weren't many places that I knew of to go.) I don't remember now where we placed ads, but we got some responses. We got a response from a couple that happened to live close by, so close, in fact, that their son was in class with one of our daughters. Small world, I know! This made me feel a bit more at ease, and I was able to talk to both of them easier. Even though I didn't know what either of them really looked like, I found myself getting very aroused talking to them, and even began to fantasize about fucking them. I was honest with both of them, and told them about our first experience with another woman and that I was very apprehensive about trying it again. She assured me that if I didn't want the men to join in, it would just be the two of us and they would just watch. This, of course, turned me on even more. We decided we were going to do this, but never really set up a date that would work for all of us.
And then came September 11th. Yes, THAT September 11th. We had just put our girls on the bus for school, and had turned on MTV. He called and asked if we were watching the news, and told me what happened. I thought he was joking because he had a sick sense of humor like that. I turned on the news, NBC, and just sat there in shock and horror. My Ex was in the military at this time, and we were stationed at Ft. Hood, TX. We didn't know what was going on, and we were scared. We decided to head over to our friend's house (since we couldn't get off base anyways) and watch what was going on together. This was the first time we all met in person. When we heard for sure that the base was closed, I called in to work. There was no way I'd make it anyways. The girl and I started talking (I'll call her Red, because I remember her having red hair), and we decided that fooling around could be a lot of fun right now. I think we said something to the guys, and made our way back to the bedroom.
So there you have it, my extent of experience with women. Would I like to try again? Of course. I know all women can't be bad in bed, and I'm hoping the third time will be the charm. Why do I want to be with another woman? Ummm, hello? Have you ever looked at a naked woman? Women have beautiful bodies. I love the different curves of each section of a woman's body. I want to see what it's like to just be with a woman, and maybe have Dustin walk in on us. I know he loves to think about it too, and that alone makes me want it more. See, I enjoy doing things Dustin wants, and things that make him feel good. As a matter of fact, I love pleasing him almost more than I enjoy being pleased. That's why I know my next experience with a woman will be very different. Yes, we do have someone in mind, but volunteers are always welcome! ;)
Also, please feel free to leave any kind of feedback of things you think could help me relax or get more in the mood.
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